EXHAUSTED

Boy, am I tired right now. I had a twelve hour day. I was up at 8:30am and my day didn’t finish until 8:30pm.

I had to invigilate a quiz as part of my TA duties tonight. I was stuck in a stuffy, hot, and crowded classroom from 6:30pm to 8:30pm.

I don’t have to be up until 10am tomorrow. The logical thing to do would be to go to bed now, wake up early and then do some work. I don’t work very well in the morning though, so tired as I am, I’ll probably try to get some stuff done before 2:30am, which I’ll probably shoot for as my bedtime.

It’s interesting what can drive a person to ignore fatigue, to clear your mind, and to sharpen your focus. Caffeine is one thing. It’s a dangerous game though, since too much of that stuff will leave just as ineffective. Anger is another thing. I found this out in undergrad. If you just find one thing to be really angry about, you can channel that anger towards getting some work done. I tend not to use this very often as you really don’t want to live your life this way. If I may borrow some terms from an ancient order of peacekeepers, anger, fear, and agression are paths towards a darker side of living. It’s the easiest and most seductive way to get your ass in gear, but it’s done for all the wrong reasons.

The best way to movitate yourself is sheer determination. You simply rely on your will to get things done, no matter what stands in your way. People have finished assignments in one night, written an essay in five hours, formulated presentations in an afternoon, and carried their best friends up a volcanic mountain on their shoulders.

Having said this though, I’ll prolly watch some stuff on IFILM until I get too tired to do anything else.